Raining heavyly this morning when I was driving to work at Kerinchi Link . When I just abt to reach a tol, approaching me was a very fast BMW. With a split second, the BMW lost control and spining 360 degree and ALMOST hit my tiny litte kancil. Without hesitation, I accelerate to over take the spining car. And I survived the "crash". "Thank god" the rest of car managed to break on time. No one hurt and no major accident.
Bhante Pema said those that practise dhamma is protected by dhamma. I guess I still have more work to do to end all my karma contract
Thursday, August 21, 2008
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Sick Sick Sick
I been sick for the past 2 weeks ....
fever.... gastric .... diarrhoea .... I didn't even go to gym ...
I been feeling hopeless, aimless and weak for the past 2 months ...what happening to me ?
My bro said I am potraying a bad image .... I am weak ....
what happen to me ?!!!!!
fever.... gastric .... diarrhoea .... I didn't even go to gym ...
I been feeling hopeless, aimless and weak for the past 2 months ...what happening to me ?
My bro said I am potraying a bad image .... I am weak ....
what happen to me ?!!!!!
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Dana & I
Generosity in Pali called DANA...
my agreement with bro and my self is to buy rice and food to offer to Sangha (monk). At the same time, we signed up pledge form for our organs. I promised my self to donate blood every 3 months. Of course, I introduce this practise to bro but he is afraid of needles.
BUT I wanted to do more .... I hoping to get better and stable job to donate 10% to 20% of my nett salary to charity and temple. At the same time I was hoping to pay of some of bro PTPTN loan so his mind can be at peace to be a novice or ordained as monk. Bro rejected my offer.
But bro not very determined to be a monk. I hope he is not venting.
Why I willing to do that? I really treat bro Sumitta like family. He is like a family that cares abt me (which my own family don't). And deep down in my heart, I know bro Sumitta treat me like just friend, that why he has reserved.
Oh well I hope good intention counts.
my agreement with bro and my self is to buy rice and food to offer to Sangha (monk). At the same time, we signed up pledge form for our organs. I promised my self to donate blood every 3 months. Of course, I introduce this practise to bro but he is afraid of needles.
BUT I wanted to do more .... I hoping to get better and stable job to donate 10% to 20% of my nett salary to charity and temple. At the same time I was hoping to pay of some of bro PTPTN loan so his mind can be at peace to be a novice or ordained as monk. Bro rejected my offer.
But bro not very determined to be a monk. I hope he is not venting.
Why I willing to do that? I really treat bro Sumitta like family. He is like a family that cares abt me (which my own family don't). And deep down in my heart, I know bro Sumitta treat me like just friend, that why he has reserved.
Oh well I hope good intention counts.
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Drifted away ... far far away
I felt so disoriented .... I felt so far away from every thing ... Buddhism, work , family, friend, Bro ... every thing .. I just had a sudden feeling of don't know what to do with my life ...
I am not in middle age yet ... it shouldn't be midlife crisis
I am dying to have a good sleep ... and rest ..
I am dying to have a good career advancement ... (which I don't it now, but I am contented and grateful I still have a job)
So how ? Brown cow?
I am not in middle age yet ... it shouldn't be midlife crisis
I am dying to have a good sleep ... and rest ..
I am dying to have a good career advancement ... (which I don't it now, but I am contented and grateful I still have a job)
So how ? Brown cow?
Sunday, July 6, 2008
lonely, lonely, lonely !!
What do lonely means ? Not sure for others, for me lonely is a feeling that i need to overcome !
We came to this world (existance) alone, we got old and sick by our self and we pass away alone Nothing and no one can follow you or even experience what you going thru. Of course except your Karma and merits will be following you every existance you are in.
I was sick for 2 weeks, see doctor 3 times, yet my family didn't even notice I am sick. I practically been having difficulty of breathing, vomitting and upsad stamoch. And the problem doesn't stop there, my menstrual cycle is late. My weight keep going up. :(
Buddha taught us not to have attachment , but he didn't teach us not to take care of our health. I guess this time I really screw up ! I need to stop and recollect my self.
When I am sick, I feel even more lonely! Cook porridge by my self. Go to clinic by my self. The "best thing" is I can get up and do my work! Workaholic! What to do?!
I remember few years ago, I drove my self to the hospital for 2 times. I was really sick, I cannot breath, lips and nails turn blue black. I was admitted 5 days, can't even talk (cannot breath mah!).
Where is my family and friends? Not sure where are they. Well I used to be very very angry with the way they treat me. But now with Buddha teaching, I forgive my self and others.
Don't even ask me to get a boy friend or some thing like that, this being called "Boy friend or Husband" is only another hopeless being that can't help me. WAIT! Don't get me wrong. When I said hopeless means he can't help you, he is not you , no one can help you except your self. No one can replace you being sick. Therefore getting a being called "Boy friend or Husband" doesn't resolve my sickness nor resolve my loneliness.
The loneliness is originated within "me", because I "existed" that why I have so much of suffering. Other solution is just temporary. The only way is strike to the non-return path.
ya ya ya ...... it all come back to Buddhism .....
We came to this world (existance) alone, we got old and sick by our self and we pass away alone Nothing and no one can follow you or even experience what you going thru. Of course except your Karma and merits will be following you every existance you are in.
I was sick for 2 weeks, see doctor 3 times, yet my family didn't even notice I am sick. I practically been having difficulty of breathing, vomitting and upsad stamoch. And the problem doesn't stop there, my menstrual cycle is late. My weight keep going up. :(
Buddha taught us not to have attachment , but he didn't teach us not to take care of our health. I guess this time I really screw up ! I need to stop and recollect my self.
When I am sick, I feel even more lonely! Cook porridge by my self. Go to clinic by my self. The "best thing" is I can get up and do my work! Workaholic! What to do?!
I remember few years ago, I drove my self to the hospital for 2 times. I was really sick, I cannot breath, lips and nails turn blue black. I was admitted 5 days, can't even talk (cannot breath mah!).
Where is my family and friends? Not sure where are they. Well I used to be very very angry with the way they treat me. But now with Buddha teaching, I forgive my self and others.
Don't even ask me to get a boy friend or some thing like that, this being called "Boy friend or Husband" is only another hopeless being that can't help me. WAIT! Don't get me wrong. When I said hopeless means he can't help you, he is not you , no one can help you except your self. No one can replace you being sick. Therefore getting a being called "Boy friend or Husband" doesn't resolve my sickness nor resolve my loneliness.
The loneliness is originated within "me", because I "existed" that why I have so much of suffering. Other solution is just temporary. The only way is strike to the non-return path.
ya ya ya ...... it all come back to Buddhism .....
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
Disoriented
It is 3am NOW!!! and I just woke up for no reason .... my life is so disoriented .....
I don't sleep well....... I don't eat well....... I keep vomitting ....... stamoch upsad ..... bloated.... Menstrual cycle is late ...... again....... constantly angry with my self and my weight
Frequently feel tired. Even feel too tired to go temple......... constantly managing anger and stress when my colleague keep asking me to do their work .
Weekends ? Even worst .... stuck in a situation that I have to help my friend every week .....
How now ? brown cow ? ...... Oh well every thing will be gone .... Non-self ... there is no me ....
I don't sleep well....... I don't eat well....... I keep vomitting ....... stamoch upsad ..... bloated.... Menstrual cycle is late ...... again....... constantly angry with my self and my weight
Frequently feel tired. Even feel too tired to go temple......... constantly managing anger and stress when my colleague keep asking me to do their work .
Weekends ? Even worst .... stuck in a situation that I have to help my friend every week .....
How now ? brown cow ? ...... Oh well every thing will be gone .... Non-self ... there is no me ....
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
Eightfold path to the only way to liberation – 30 may 2008
By Bhante Kassapa
I hope I get Bhante's talk correctly:
The heart of the Buddha's teaching lies in teh Four Noble Truths which he expounderd in his first sermon to the five ascetics, at Isipatana Near Benares.
4 Noble Truths:
1) Dukkha - Suffering
All compounded things are subject to Dukkha and it is universal. Birth, decay, sick and death.
2) The arising of Dukkha
From craving springs grief, froom craving springs fear, For hm who is wholly free from craving , there is no grief, whence fear?
3) The End of Dukkha
Eliminate it at its root, namely, craving (Tanha)
4) The Path Leading to the END of Dukkha
Noble Eightfold path - the MIDDLE Path
What is the Noble Eightfold Path?
The path to Nibbana is like taking a train to KLIA.
The KLIA (Nibbana) was not built because we are taking the train but it is built because we need to arrive KLIA to get out (of suffering). The Train is like the Eightfold Path. This train has 8 compartments, each link with mindfulness. We are sitting in this train, "driving" the train to the destination. This is a one way train, no return. Who wanna return to Suffering ?!
Mindfulness is like an action of unveil the curtain (confusion / ignorance ) of your mind to see the right or wrong of matter. Mindfulness do not decide the action but your mind (thoughts) does.
1) Right Understanding (Panna - Wisdom)
What is right view and wrong view?
Wrong understand of 4 noble truth, 3 charactor of life and dependant of origination will lead us further from Nibbana.
Overcome from wrong views. Going through all noble truth to experience and exam to gain perfect understanding.
2) Right Thought (Panna - Wisdom)
What is the wrong thoughts? Indulged in the sensual pleasures the is wrong thoughts.
The right right way is to renounce from sensual pleasure.
What is Right view?
Anger view is wrong view. Loving –kindness is the good view – right thought. Unkindly – violent way is also wrong thinking. Hatred can be over come by Loving -kindness.
3) Right Speech (Sila - Morality)
The word has much power. If not use it in proper way, it will harm people.
4) Right Action (Sila - Morality)
Psychological disaster is an attachment to sensual desire. Wrong view is inwardly developed by thought and outwardly become disaster. Inwardly developed compassion and outwardly be come loving action.
5) Right Livelihood (Sila - Morality)
5 percepts is a management system to manage your word and action. Observing this SILA – moral discipline is like having flower in the present and your heart became sweet and light.
6) Right Effort (Samadhi - concentration
Essential factor. When unwholesome thoughts is arise, you need the right effort to manage it. And right effort to maintain the wholesome thoughts. Caltivate the Effort to arouse wholesome thoughts.
7) Right Mindfulness (Samadhi - concentration)
Pretending we are mindful is wrong mindfulness. What is right mindfulness? To present your mind to mindfulness; Mindfulness is wholesome thought. It guard to your mind. Any thought it comes and mindfulness reminds you what is there before it occurs. Mindfulness don’t tell you what is right or wrong but it reminds you .
8) Right Concentration (Samadhi - concentration)
To bring the mind to tranquility. To be focus.
Cultivate the Samadhi to gain Panna (Wisdom). But Sila is to ensure Samadhi to be cultivated.
This is a very inspiring talk . To end the suffering, we need number of different effort,
To avoid evil - 5 precepts
To do Good - DANA , caltivate good karma
To purify your mind - Meditation
If "train" break down, you will never reach "KLIA"
I hope I get Bhante's talk correctly:
The heart of the Buddha's teaching lies in teh Four Noble Truths which he expounderd in his first sermon to the five ascetics, at Isipatana Near Benares.
4 Noble Truths:
1) Dukkha - Suffering
All compounded things are subject to Dukkha and it is universal. Birth, decay, sick and death.
2) The arising of Dukkha
From craving springs grief, froom craving springs fear, For hm who is wholly free from craving , there is no grief, whence fear?
3) The End of Dukkha
Eliminate it at its root, namely, craving (Tanha)
4) The Path Leading to the END of Dukkha
Noble Eightfold path - the MIDDLE Path
What is the Noble Eightfold Path?
The path to Nibbana is like taking a train to KLIA.
The KLIA (Nibbana) was not built because we are taking the train but it is built because we need to arrive KLIA to get out (of suffering). The Train is like the Eightfold Path. This train has 8 compartments, each link with mindfulness. We are sitting in this train, "driving" the train to the destination. This is a one way train, no return. Who wanna return to Suffering ?!
Mindfulness is like an action of unveil the curtain (confusion / ignorance ) of your mind to see the right or wrong of matter. Mindfulness do not decide the action but your mind (thoughts) does.
1) Right Understanding (Panna - Wisdom)
What is right view and wrong view?
Wrong understand of 4 noble truth, 3 charactor of life and dependant of origination will lead us further from Nibbana.
Overcome from wrong views. Going through all noble truth to experience and exam to gain perfect understanding.
2) Right Thought (Panna - Wisdom)
What is the wrong thoughts? Indulged in the sensual pleasures the is wrong thoughts.
The right right way is to renounce from sensual pleasure.
What is Right view?
Anger view is wrong view. Loving –kindness is the good view – right thought. Unkindly – violent way is also wrong thinking. Hatred can be over come by Loving -kindness.
3) Right Speech (Sila - Morality)
The word has much power. If not use it in proper way, it will harm people.
4) Right Action (Sila - Morality)
Psychological disaster is an attachment to sensual desire. Wrong view is inwardly developed by thought and outwardly become disaster. Inwardly developed compassion and outwardly be come loving action.
5) Right Livelihood (Sila - Morality)
5 percepts is a management system to manage your word and action. Observing this SILA – moral discipline is like having flower in the present and your heart became sweet and light.
6) Right Effort (Samadhi - concentration
Essential factor. When unwholesome thoughts is arise, you need the right effort to manage it. And right effort to maintain the wholesome thoughts. Caltivate the Effort to arouse wholesome thoughts.
7) Right Mindfulness (Samadhi - concentration)
Pretending we are mindful is wrong mindfulness. What is right mindfulness? To present your mind to mindfulness; Mindfulness is wholesome thought. It guard to your mind. Any thought it comes and mindfulness reminds you what is there before it occurs. Mindfulness don’t tell you what is right or wrong but it reminds you .
8) Right Concentration (Samadhi - concentration)
To bring the mind to tranquility. To be focus.
Cultivate the Samadhi to gain Panna (Wisdom). But Sila is to ensure Samadhi to be cultivated.
This is a very inspiring talk . To end the suffering, we need number of different effort,
To avoid evil - 5 precepts
To do Good - DANA , caltivate good karma
To purify your mind - Meditation
If "train" break down, you will never reach "KLIA"
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