It is 3am NOW!!! and I just woke up for no reason .... my life is so disoriented .....
I don't sleep well....... I don't eat well....... I keep vomitting ....... stamoch upsad ..... bloated.... Menstrual cycle is late ...... again....... constantly angry with my self and my weight
Frequently feel tired. Even feel too tired to go temple......... constantly managing anger and stress when my colleague keep asking me to do their work .
Weekends ? Even worst .... stuck in a situation that I have to help my friend every week .....
How now ? brown cow ? ...... Oh well every thing will be gone .... Non-self ... there is no me ....
About Me
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- Sakila Hoon
- My standard profile : Short short … fat fat … girl that never admit she is old and unattractive…. Oh well … Here is the truth I used to be a person : Money I pleasure; Enemies I conquered; Love I cherish; Power I demand; Live life like there is no tomorrow. Craving for more happiness. That why I am unhappy. After I found Buddhism, I found bliss, serenity and peacefulness. I found the path. That why I am “depositing” my invisible “money” to my invisible life(s) time piggy bank. “ Sow a thought and reap a habit; Sow a habit and reap a character; Sow a character and reap a destiny.”
3 comments:
oi what happen la, you've push yourself too far already la sister.. your body is giving you a BIG signal already, why are you still ignoring it. "Stop, Pls Stop, I need a rest!!"
Take some time off, ask for leave during weekends, don't give a damn about the S.master. You ain't helping yourself.
And meditate more... don't just always talk about Buddhism only, practise it. Walk the talk.
If you find these statements discouraging, I'm sorry but I have to do it. You need people to hantam you only can change.
How do you know I only talk abt Buddhism and NOT practising. Just because I didnt do enough meditation doesn't mean I didn't practice ....
I finally request for rest day !!! I know my body is warning me liao......
I am in no position to tell you what to do or what not. As a brother, i will just blurt out my honest opinion to you. You know yourself best :)
Hahah, finaly a break day for your body. haha. Body said, "Yay!!!"
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